Topic: Dark
Crying alone in my room so cold and dead inside.
My skin crawls where I was touched so virally!
I am filthy, dirty, alone, and dead.
I’m unclean!
Unclean! I’ll never be the same…
Filthy-I still feel dirty.
The blood that comes to the skin doesn’t make it go away!
It stays here, within me, it haunts me…it tortures me! Destroys me!!
I am bound to you, in this anguish, to what I hate.
I’m insecure from this affliction, and I need the madness
To feed the serpents of deception!
I need to get this outta me!
This is my only fucking escape!
I still think about it all the time…
Like a cannibalizing mind.
In the day and into the night…
And I’m still not comfortable in my skin.
And I am crying again.
I hate myself and what I’ve become!
& this persistent crawling in my skin--It won’t go away!!
It’s killing me, suffocating me.
Can’t you see what you did to me?!
You killed me!
Why did you have to hurt me?
You took my world,
And now… my soul is empty!
You infected me…
& now…
I’ll never, ever be the same.