What happened to me on that day,
When my blind view of the world was shattered,
When I first saw the lies and deceit.

The crawling began,
Like a mass epidemic,
Tearing at my skin!

As I quiver in this darkened corner,
Watching my demons come for me,
As they work their way inside again.

Twisting my mind,
Making all the things come to the skin again,
While it incites this mental riot.

It took control of me,
As it murdered all that was good in me,
It made me cold and dead.

Now I lay here begging,
As the visions of that day keep plaguing,
And I am slowly losing my mind.

I’m screaming,
And trying…
To hide all of this inside!

But keeping it from the surface,
It’s slowly making me decay,
It has made me cold and dead inside.

The eye,
It sees all I was,
And all I can never be.

It’s watching as my life slowly fades,
Into an oblivion of emptiness,
I’m dying slowly.

I’m trying to hold on…
When it all seems pointless,
And I keep on trying

But I am dying inside,
Slowly rotting from the inside out,
As the agony of life invades,

It sends my stomach into knots,
As I scream out my insanity,
And my mind goes numb.

All I am is a black hole,
The void is taking over me,
And I can’t find my way.

When all of my past comes for me,
It haunts me,
I am crashing can’t you see?

This pain and agony you inflict on me,
I see the beatings in slow motion,
As I get faded

And I hear the rampant screaming,
Of thoughts long lost…
Of revenge and striking back.

But I have failed,
And now only my nightmares are real,
My hate it burns within me… somebody, stop me.